FMM: GETTING TO KNOW EACH OTHER

Now it’s that time…If you’ve taken part in FMM then you know the rules. If you’re new, please take a moment to answer this week’s question on your own blog then add your link in the comments section here at: www.alltheweigh.com so we can all see your FMM questions and answers. Please invite your blog readers to add their links here too so everyone has to opportunity to be seen. The idea is to connect with other awesome bloggers so take a moment to post your own FMM post and comment on a couple of other posts. Now it’s time for this week’s topic!

Getting To Know Each Other

 

 

1. What is your favorite color? Blue, purple & green
2. Share one or more of your talents.  I'm good at researching stuff?LOL  I don't really know.  Don't believe I have many talents.
3. If you were spending the day getting to know someone new, where would you want to go?  A cafe for coffee or maybe a park to hang out.
4. What is your favorite meal?  Hamburgers.;)
5. Do you prefer to text or talk?  Depends on the person.
6. Share something about yourself that might surprise someone that you’re getting to know.  I like cemeteries.
7. Do you color your hair? Yes...usually blonde.
8. Do you wear glasses or contacts?  Glasses
9. What is your favorite breakfast food?  Used to be bacon & eggs..but eggs make me sick now for some reason...so BACON.:)  Has to be crisp though.
10. Would your friends say that you’re sarcastic?  Very...I have a sarcastic sense of humor...that few people get or appreciate.
11. Do you prefer salty or sweet?  Salty.
12. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?  Eyes & smile
13. What is the last movie you watched?  I watched a few movies over the weekend.  Last one though was the "Halloween" written by Rob Zombie.
14. Are you religious? I believe in God, but I'm not religious.
15. Are you a neat freak, a slob, or somewhere in between? As a Virgo, I'm supposed to be a neat freak. I would LIKE a neat house...but don't think that's going to happen any time soon.  I have hoarder tendencies that I'm working on..so guess somewhere in between.
16. Share something from your bucket list that you hope to do someday. There are two things that I really want to do.  Go to Ireland is one.  Go to the "movie star" cemeteries in Hollywood & surrounding areas is another.
17. Are you a risk taker, or do you prefer to play it safe?  I have always played it safe...which sucks.  Would rather be a risk taker.
18. Have you ever worn braces?  No, but I should have in Junior High instead of retainers..complete waste of my parents' money...I hardly ever kept them in.:(
19. Would you rather spend an evening at a theater or at a club?  If I were thinner...definitely a club.
20. If you could have three wishes, what would one of them be?  Gonna have to agree with Kenlie here.... health, wealth and love.

Now it’s your turn to answer this week’s questions. Don’t forget to come back and link up in the comments! Happy Monday!

FEELING DISGUSTING.....

I'm going to see JM tomorrow..well I guess its today now... for the weekend.  On my way, I'm going to drop some things off at Goodwill in a town about an hour from here.  Anyway...when I buy shirts...my mom always asks me why I need another shirt, since I have so many in my closet.  So I decided to go through all of my shirts & get rid of the ones that don't fit anymore or that I know I won't wear.  It was depressing.  It reminded me of being a kid & having to go to stores & try on clothes..where nothing ever fit right.  All the cool clothes were too tight for me.  So had to wear the uncool ones.  Still feels that way.  I wish I had never tried on ANY shirts tonight.  I just feel like a fat blob.  I can't say that I hate myself, because I don't.  I used to...but pretty much got over that.  Now I'm just disgusted with myself.   So I have like a total of around 10 shirts.  I have also found that I might as well not even buy womens' shirts, because even if I buy them big...as soon as I wash them they shrink...then are too tight & look ridiculous.  So I buy men's t-shirts with "funny" sayings on them or skulls or some weird stuff like that.  Maybe they look "cool," but it would be nice to look good at least sometimes. 

I have too much on my mind these days & now me feeling "icky..." well it doesn't help.  JM texted & asked me today what has been going on, since for the past few days or so, I haven't said that I loved him unless he said it first & that I was "short" on the phone Wednesday night.  I don't know the answers to that really.  You can only take so much rejection...and just certain things were said before...it changes feelings sometimes.  I don't know if that's what's going on with me or not, but right now...I'm just overwhelmed with life.

Phillip has a doctor's appt in Pueblo today...Dave is taking him.  He's back to not going to school again.  Guess I will ask the school if I can try to help him at home & then just turn his homework in.  I don't know if they will go for that or not.  I know it's "the law" that he goes to school.  But I would rather get in trouble, then to have my kid be miserable enough to think about killing himself.

My house is also most likely going into foreclosure on Feb. 13th.  I'm about 4 months behind.  I have been paying on it now & was going to try to make a double payment next month with the income tax, to get a bit more caught up..but they are saying that if I don't have the full amount due or if they don't have a program to help me, then they can't (won't) stop the foreclosure.  Well they have already said that they don't have a program to help me.  I have no idea where I will go.  I don't want to lose the kids.  But I won't have them homeless with me.  I will figure something out...always do.  JM asked if there was anything he could do to help...it was nice of him to ask, but there really isn't.  We had been talking before about me moving down there & moving in together with my kids.  Well he hasn't even met my kids yet.  There have been a couple of times that I had planned for him to meet them, but then for whatever reason, it fell through.  So I doubt we will be moving in together anytime soon, if at all. 

The health of my step-dad is weighing on my mind as well.  It's just not good.  Of course, they won't give us a time frame...though I think we would all rather know.  Wouldn't you want to know how long you had?  His bloodwork isn't good, whatever that means.  He can't have ANY salt at all, not much liquid either..only a certain amount a day.  He goes to the doctor in the Springs again on the 12th...don't really know what they're going to do or say that hasn't already been done or said.  I can't imagine him not being around.  Phillip is having a really hard time seeing him sick.  The other two as well..though they don't talk about it much.  It's like seeing their grandpa (Daves' dad) all over again & that didn't end with a happy ending.  He has been in my life & around for me for longer than my real dad was.  I won't go into all of that right now...but dad left when I was 12.  We saw him once a week for "visitation" for a few years after that & only because the judge ordered him to.  Things were a bit better when I was older...but he should have been there, at least emotionally, the whole time.  My step-dad has been in our lives for 16+ years.  Just hard to see people get older...get sicker.

I just need a break from everything for awhile.   But don't see that happening anytime soon. 

"You know, the smallest thing can change a life. In the blink of an eye, something happens by chance - and when you least expect it - since we're on a course that you could have never planned, into a future you never imagined. Where will it take you? That's the journey of our lives: our search for the light. But sometimes, finding the light means you must past through the deepest darkness. At least, that's how it was for me."  ~~The Lucky One

ONE DAY AT A TIME....

I don't know how some people can just "go with the flow," do the one day at a time thing, etc.  Now I am trying to be more like this, but I just wasn't born that way.  I have been a worrier since I was a kid.  I know that things will work out the way they're supposed to, that I"m where I'm supposed to be in my life right now, that things happen for a reason & that some things are already destined.  That we have some control over things, but that some things were "written" before we were born.  Yes I do believe that.  But it's hard for me when I don't at least FEEL in control of things...even if I'm not in control of them at all.  I want things to work out the way that I want them to work out.  I don't like change, don't like surprises..well it depends on what kind of surprise!LOL  Don't like the "unknown."  I guess that makes me a pretty boring person at times...I don't know.  I have wished that I was more adventurous, more spontaneous, more "go with the flow."  But I'm just not like that.  Though I do try to live one day at at time (sometimes one minute at a time), enjoy what every day brings, live more in the moment, etc.  I just have to try somehow to just chill out.  Just not sure how.

The weight thing....I get so annoyed.  It's up, it's down..why can't it just stay down???  Sometimes I feel huge, sometimes not so huge.  It annoys me too that we all have to worry about the way we look so much.  We should just accept people for who they are not what they look like, but we don't.

Going to see JM this weekend again.  Just like hanging out with him.  So maybe that's all it will be in the end.  Who knows.  I hung out with a couple of guy friends last weekend.  I go to Bingo on Friday nights in another town close to here.  That's where I met Brad.  So we have known each other for awhile.  We have just talked, laughed, joked around there.  Well last Friday, he invited back to his place after Bingo for coffee & maybe a drink or two.  So I went.  It's just totally a friend thing.  He's not looking for anything & I have JM.  We talked for awhile, hung out.  I had a couple of drinks, so didn't want to drive 24 miles home.  So I slept on his couch.  Not the most comfortable thing.  Left early the next morning, because I wanted to watch the boys bowl.  It would be cool to hang out with Brad some more, but not sure how that will go.  It might just be a "Bingo thing." LOL  Then Saturday night, my friend Adam asked me to go over and hang out.  I have mentioned him before.  Met him at the end of last May.  We have hung out a few times since then, going to the mountains, etc.  So I went over there.  Believe me, if he had wanted a relationship with me before JM came into the picture, I would have sooo been there.  But we're just friends.  I'm not his type..geez am I anyones' type??LOL  Adam & I are comfortable with each other & will hang out some more. 

It's been beautiful here!  More like Spring.  I know it won't last, but trying to enjoy it while it does!  I have only worked one day this week..yesterday.  Then tomorrow night...So not many hours.  It's all good though.

TRIALS...

Well the visit with JM didn't go that great.  First...I was planning on leaving early in the morning of 10th...that didn't happen.  My mom wanted me to help her clean this house that she cleans weekly...she knew I was leaving that day..so not sure what that was all about.  So ended up leaving around 1:00pm & not getting there until about 3:00pm.  We had a nice time just talking, cuddling & watching the movie "Snow White & The Huntsman."  Then we went & laid down & talked some more.  He can't sleep in the same room as me, because I snore too loudly.  I hate that.  It's not like it's something that I can help.:(  Might try some of those "Breathe Right" strips or whatever sometime.  Anyway, the weather hasn't been great around here lately..very cold & a bit of snow..not a lot, but enough to make the roads icy.  There is a road between here & Canon City...that is horrible to drive on when it's icy..it's right next to a river..which freaks me out.  Anyway..I heard it was pretty bad the morning of the 11th & that there was supposed to be more snow coming in later that day.  So instead of staying for an extra day,  I left on the 11th around 2:00pm.  That was bad enough, but before I left...I wanted to "talk" about things & how everything was going.  I was in tears most of the time..and I don't cry in front of ANYONE if  I can help it.  Just some things that were bothering me.  So when I left, it was basically "over" between us & we were just going to be friends.  I gave it a lot of thought later that day & night & knew that I was too far gone to just let it be a "friend thing."  So I texted him & also talked to him on the phone & let him know how I felt.  He said that he wasn't sure what was going on in his life right now & he had to figure a few things out...one of those being if he wanted to get back into a relationship with me.  I brought it on myself, so I was just trying to deal with that.  We continued texting & all.  Then last night, he told me that he DID want to restart the relationship with me.  That made me happy.  I don't know where it will go or how far, but for right now..this is what I want.  I have had offers around here for a FWB...just not interested in that.  I want love & sex...don't think it's right for me to have to choose.  But if I did...well love is an important thing at this point in my life.

Phillip has been a little better about going to school...just hope that he keeps it up.

Things with my ex are stressing me out a bit.  He thinks that we should "hook up" once a week or so even though we are both in relationships, because then it's just "between us" & it's "not like we're cheating on each other."  WTH??  Don't know why he's doing this, except he says that I'm "freakier" than her....whatever that means.  Sorry if it's too much info.LOL

They have cut my hours at Wal Mart A LOT for the next few weeks at least.  It's OK for now...have some things to get done, but hopefully will pick up again soon.

I still haven't been feeling great...just wish the nausea would go away really.

FMM: INTERESTING THINGS

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Interesting Things

 

 

1. What is the last movie you saw in a theater?  Twilight...Breaking Dawn Part 2.  Yep...my friend Joannie & I took all 6 of our kids to see it!!LOL  Good movie.
2. How old were you when you had your first kiss? First REAL kiss?  The Summer when I was 15..wish I would have waited for it to be with someone else.
3. Share the coolest thing that you’ve done so far in 2013.  I gotta say that I haven't done anything really cool in 2013 yet...but the year is still young.:)
4. What kind of cell phone do you use? Do you love it? I just recently got a new straighttalk phone..it's touchscreen & is pretty cool.  I only have to pay $45 a month for it now...so I'm good with that.
5. How many times do you plan to workout this week? I haven't been working out AT ALL lately...but going to try for at least 3x this week...30 minutes each.
6. What is your favorite movie from the 80′s? Where do I begin???? LOL  "The Breakfast Club," "Sixteen Candles," "Pretty in Pink," "Some Kind Of Wonderful,"...the list goes on!
7. If you could choose one character from a TV show or a movie to fall head over heels for you, who would it be? Well "Deeks" off of NCIS: Los Angeles for sure...played by Eric Christian Olsen

OR Taylor Kinney off of "Chicago Fire." 



8. If you could eat one food everyday for the rest of your life without gaining any weight as a result, what would you choose?  A toss up between crisp bacon, mashed potatoes & garlic bread!!
9. What is your favorite flower? Roses & Lilacs
10. Did you watch the Golden Globes last night?  No...I missed it.:(

 Now it’s your turn to answer this week’s questions. Don’t forget to come back and link up in the comments! Also…say hi to someone new this week! Happy Monday!

FMM: SOME SIMPLE QUESTIONS

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Simple Questions

 

 

1. Outside my window I see…my front yard
2. My kitchen counters are…messy?LOL 
3. Yesterday I drank…lots of water
4. My cell phone is…new....just got a new Straighttalk phone.
5. My computer is…an important thing
6. My favorite reality show is…The Biggest Loser
7. My workouts are…Few & far between right now.:(
8. The last book I read is…A paranormal romance by Kresly Cole...LOVE IT!!
9. My week will be….a good one hopefully
10. So far 2013 has been…a pretty good year.

Now it’s your turn to answer this week’s questions. Don’t forget to come back and link up in the comments! Happy Monday, friends!

BLAH....

I'm not feeling real great right now.  Physically or mentally.  I have been eating a bit too much lately & have put a bit of weight back on...which is disappointing to me.  But that's not the only thing it's done...I just feel physically sick..my stomach hurts & just don't feel great.  I haven't been eating a TON, but more than I was.  I have to eat very little in order to lose weight.  I know that it's my age & just the way my metabolism is now...but it's hard to hardly eat sometimes.  I retain some water...so I know that I have to cut back on the salt...I use way too much.  There are a lot of things that I need to do to make myself healthier & to feel better.  Some days it's totally easy & other days...not so much.  I made the mistake of eating some scrambled eggs yesterday & was in serious pain the rest of the day.  I don't get that at all.  I USED to be allergic to eggs when I was a kid....was allergic to a lot of foods back then.  Then I was good for years.  The past year or two...scrambled eggs or fried eggs put me in pain most of the time (but not all), yet my stomach seems to be fine with hard boiled eggs.  How does that make sense?  I love eggs..so every now & then...I TRY it to see if it will bother me that time.  Yesterday it did...big time.  I was supposed to work from 5:30pm-10:00pm last night, but had to call off.  I feel sooo bad about that...but I was hurting so bad, there was no way I could have stood there & dealt with things for that long.  So no more eggs for me...ever.

I have a couple of days off now..so going to Colorado Springs today to see JM.  I look forward to hanging out.  He's going to Seattle in April for about a week & I might go with him.  No definite plans yet...that's a few months away & who knows what will happen between now & then.  Ever the optimist, right?LOL  I just try to take one day at a time anymore...with this situation..with everything.

My oldest, Phillip...he has been refusing to go to school.  Can I make him?  Well if I could, I would.  I would like to know HOW.  Yes I'm the parent...but he's bigger than me & stubborn.  He wants to be homeschooled.  I told him that's out of the question.  I told him that he needs to finish 8th grade...that it's only 5 more months out of his life & then when high school starts...he can go to the alternative high school.  I just want to get him THRU school.  I know by him not going, that he can get into trouble & so can I.  I have told him that if he continues to act like this, that he will have to live with his dad.  If the authorities get involved, he may not have a choice to live with either one of us.:(  I couldn't stand that.  I love my kids.  I want them to succeed in life.  This is an ongoing source of stress for me.

My niece, Justine, turned 20 on the 8th!  That's so hard to believe.  She was just a baby yesterday...
Her Chihuahua had two puppies on the 7th...they are so cute & little!!  She is going to end up keeping them..I knew that she wouldn't be able to get rid of them.LOL  One is all black & the other one is black with a little bit of brown on her.  Both girls.  The mom is tan, but the dad is darker. The mom is "Persephone." Such a huge name for a little dog.LOL  She's not producing any milk, so Justine needs to bottle feed the puppies...started yesterday...I helped her...but they are stubborn little things & were not happy about the bottle at all.

My step-dad is doing "better."  He is still on oxygen & will probably have to continue to be  He's lost like 40 lbs in the past month...a lot of it extra fluid that they drained.:(  Yuck.  They won't say how much time he has...say it's in "God's hands."  I just hope that he has a long time.  I'm selfish that way.

I won some money at Bingo last Friday...$350...so bought a new Straighttalk phone & a new ipod.  Yes I could have saved it or used it for other things..but it was "extra" money that I wouldn't have had otherwise.  I feel guilty buying anything for me...but sometimes I think it's OK to do.

HOLY CRAP!!

OK...so probably not the best way to start out a post!LOL  But I gotta write this down...an historic moment in the life of me!!:)  I'm down below 300 lbs for the first time in over 2 years!!!  I'm at 299 right now.  I'm soooo happy!  OK...I know it's still A LOT of weight...but after being in the 300's for the most part of the past 6-7 years...this is a MAJOR milestone for me!  I'm planning on NEVER going back up into the dreaded 3's again.  Next goal:  295 lbs.

FIGURES...

OK basically I just came up with the title for this post...because I couldn't think of anything else.LOL  Work is going OK.  Not much to report there.  JM & I had a "falling out" today over texting.  I was a bit annoyed with him.  We had talked on the phone last night...I felt that he was lying to me about a few things.  Well mostly just one.  It's not a BIG thing, but it's still a thing.  He had told me the other day...or I should say texted me...that he would be back on the 4th at 1:00pm.  When I asked him last night when he would be back...he's like "my flight gets in at 9:00pm on the 4th."  I reminded him that he had told me that it was 1:00pm & he said that was before he knew for sure that he was going to Canada to see Mandy.  Well I had the text to prove him wrong.  So he's lying for whatever reason about that.  No it's not a huge thing to lie about...but why is he even lying about it in the first place??  Just annoying.   After we had talked on the phone last night, I had texted him & he never answered.  So then today he texted me after I had gone into work at 2:00pm.  Just said "hey you."  Didn't answer anything from last night.  So on my break, I say "hey."  Then had to go back to work.  Anyway, to make a long story short...we later texted & I told him that I hated when he ignored my text or whenever I talk about something "serious." he just blows it off.  Or it seems like it to me.  He made a sarcastic remark & I had said something to the effect that he must think my love for him was a joke.  WELL...he then texted back & he was pissed because I had said that I felt that he thought OUR love was a joke to him.  I didn't say that.  He told me not to text him for awhile...then he made sure to put "at all" on the end of that.  I was at work, so couldn't do much about that.  So when I got off work at 10:00pm, I texted him, told him I was sorry etc. & wanted to know if he was calling it quits.  He texted back, said that he was really angry with what I said, that he told me to quit messaging him for awhile & that I was STILL messaging him, to quit acting like a victim, that nobody said it was "over."   So....for one thing, I'm NOT acting like a victim.  For another, yes I was a bit irate when I was texting him & expressed that...everyone says to be honest about feelings...well guess that's the "wrong" thing to do.  Who the hell knows.  All I know is that this is ridiculous.  He doesn't want me to text him, so I won't.  I don't have to like it.  It's hard for me NOT to text him...we have talked or texted every day since we first started talking on June 26th....now who knows when of even IF I'll get to talk to him again.  Long distance relationships suck...when you DO get into an argument...it's just too easy to ignore each other or for one to just totally cut the other one off.  There are just a lot of things that bother me about the whole situation at the moment.  I know it probably seems crazy to you, but I really do love him & haven't loved anyone like that since my ex.  Theres' notthing I can do about it at the moment, so trying to just "let it go."  This is a new year & I refuse to keep doing the same crap...obsessing, overthinking, being so damn serious, putting up with crap that nobody else would put up with, etc.  So if he decides to end it, it's his loss, right?  That's what I'll keep telling myself whether I believe it or not.

My step-dad is home from the hospital.  I don't know exactly what is going on as I haven't talked to mom about it really.  He was supposed to have a liver biopsy yesterday morning, but then didn't do it, because there were other "more important" cases.  So they were going to do it later this afternoon.  Guess he decided that he didn't want it done, so they let him come home.  Idiots.  He still can't eat anything or hardly drink anything & keep it down.  I don't think he has much time left.:(  I'm not being morbid...he just doesn't look good..though I haven't seen him for a week now...I just don't think it was a good idea that he left the hospital without knowing what's going on.

My dad has been gone for 12 years today....hard to believe that it's been that long since I last saw him.  I still miss him A LOT.   It sucks that anyone has to die.

FMM: 2013

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2013

 

1. Share one thing that you plan to do for yourself in 2013.  I'm going to plan a trip to Las Vegas...I LOVE that place...of course, I would like to go to Hawaii...but that's just a bit more expensive.LOL
2. Share a good habit that you will continue doing into the new year. I don't have an good habits really.LOL  Seriously...at one point, I wasn't eating anything sweet...so I will go back to cutting back on sugar.
3. Do you make new year’s make resolutions? If so, do you typically stick to them? I used to make them ALL the time...and would stick to them for maybe a week.  So I don't make them anymore.  Though there are a few things that I would like to do this year....fall in love with someone who is also falling in love with me..LOL,  get down below 250 at least, just enjoy life more.
4. Do you have any health goals for the new year? I want to lose this weight & keep it off.  I know that I will feel better & be healthier if I do.  Also take vitamins so I'm not sick so much.
5. Share one thing that you plan to do in January. I plan on seeing JM towards the middle of the month.
6. Do you have any travel plans for the coming year? If so, where are you most excited to go? I would love to go to Las Vegas again...so working on that.  Also plan on going to a Job Corps reunion in Montana (at the actual center) in September, so am very much looking forward to that!  I haven't been back there in almost 23 years!
7. What are your plans for New Year’s Eve? I'm filling this in late...but really had no plans.  Did end up going for a nice dinner with my mom, step-sister & step-niece.  Then went to mom's & watched the ball drop in Times Square...a yearly tradition.:)
8. What are your resolutions for 2013? See #3. 
9. What are you looking forward to most over the next 12 months? Being happier...not sweating the small stuff.  Enjoying my life more, spending more time with friends & family, travelling some, having a bit more money to spend & to save..being healthier for sure.
10. Share something unique that you hope to do in 2013. I would love to go to Atchsion, KS to see where my great-grandma was from, to meet some relatives that I have never met before.

Now it’s your turn to answer this week’s questions! Don’t forget to come back and link up in the comments, and say hi to someone new! Happy New Year!!!!!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Well my first post of 2013!  I think that's such a cool number...13 is one of my fave numbers...so looking forward to a good year.:)  What did everyone do last night?  I'm still sick, so had no plans.  I was going to have the kids for the night, since Dave & Christy were going to go out, but then she ended up with her grandson, so Dave said the boys were going to stay with him...they texted me at midnight.:)  Anyway, I was a bit bummed about being alone on New Year's Eve.  It basically sucks to be alone any time...but there are two days of the year that you really FEEL it....New Year's Eve & Valentine's Day.  But then mom, Theresa & Jade (Dukes' daughter & granddaughter) got into town & we decided to go out to eat at a nice Italian restaurant.  So that was cool.  Then just went to mom's & watched the ball drop in Times Square.  It turned out to be a decent night.  JM called from Canada a little after midnight my time & it was really nice to be able to talk to him.  I haven't had a voice in days & when I do have one, it's barely there.  He's having a pretty good time, but he may be home sooner than the 4th.  So not sure what is going on with all of that. 

I HAVE to put this in here...I know it wasn't my regular "weigh" day...but I weighed yesterday & it's 302!!!!  A great thing.  Only 3 lbs til I'm below the dreaded 300!  I'm going to have to change my weigh date...instead of Wednesdays...it will be Fridays...except for this week it was Monday...follow all of that?:)  HOW did I lose 9 lbs in 5 days??  I have no clue.  Well I HAVE been sick, so haven't been eating that much, plus took my water pill the day before.  I'm supposed to take those every day, but since I can't be running to the bathroom every 15 minutes at work, I haven't been taking them like I should (they are for high blood pressure really).

I went to the doctor on Friday...he said that a lot of people have this thing that's going around, but since I worked with the public, he gave me some strong antibiotics that I take for 5 days...so today is my last day of those.  So I'm sure I feel A LOT better than I would have without them.  My sore throat went away pretty fast.  I still don't have much of a voice & am not feeling 100%, but hopefully I will soon.  I have a sore on my nose that does NOT look attractive at all & hurts.  Complain, complain, I know.:)  I called off work again yesterday (didn't have to work the weekend), so I have used up all 3 of my days that you can miss in a 6 month period.  I'm sure I will have a "talking to."  When I'm sick, I'm sick.  So I think that's a ridiculous rule.  I'm going in today, sore on my nose, no voice & all.  Should be interesting. 

Duke is still in the hosptial.  Mom is going back down tonight or in the morning.  He is having a biopsy of his liver done in the morning.  They have ruled out his heart & kidneys causing him problems at this time.  He has a pacemaker..so he DOES have problems with his heart, but it's not what's causing him to retain so much water, be sick & be yellowish.  They did say the other day that they didn't see any cancer anywhere..so that's good.  Whatever is going on with his liver, I hope they can fix it.

It's cold out today...snow on the ground...kinda 'blah."  January has never been my most fave month.  January-March....don't know why...but they just remind me of cold, windy, snowy, bleak days...with not even a Holiday to look forward to.LOL  Though my two oldest have made me like them a bit more...Dominic will be 11 on January 28th & Phillip will be 15 on February 13th!  I can't believe that he'll be 15!!!! 

I wish for everyone a great year with much happiness & good health.  Thank you for reading my blog & sharing my life.