Sadly I DID get some judgmental people about the funding site thing. They have a right to their opinion. I just wish they weren't so rude about it. I had those 3 donations the first day & none since then.:( It has been viewed like 326 times...if each of those people would have donated $1...then that would've helped a great deal. But it's OK. I know that most people don't think it's an important thing. I have a hard time with criticism, but I knew to expect it.
I'm house/pet sitting again...just for the night though. It's supposed to snow some more tomorrow...so will try to leave a bit early to head home. I don't want to drive in the snow & ice.
My youngest son, Matthew went on a 3 day camping trip with his class from school. It was supposed to be a good time, but as soon as I went to pick him up at the school, I knew that something was wrong. He got emotional when he started telling me what happened & then I got teary-eyed & THEN pissed off! Three girls were bullying him....yes he can stand up for himself against other boys..because he has my permission to kick their asses if they start it. But with little girls...there's not much you can do. However, I have now told him that if they are hitting him or throwing things at them...then he can defend himself. If they want to act like little brats...then there will be consequences. They were throwing snowballs at him with ice in them. He told them repeatedly to stop, which they didn't & were calling him names, making fun of him, etc. A couple of the snow/ice balls hit him in the face, busted his lip & made one of his bottom front PERMANENT teeth loose. If he looses that tooth, there will be more issues than there are now. I COULD call the cops & get these girls for assault, but I don't want to get them into the whole legal system. So I called the principal as soon as I had picked him up. He wasn't in...which was weird...but I left a message on his voice mail explaining the situation. The next day (last Thursday), I waited for him to call me, but he hadn't by like 2:00pm, so I called him again. I told him again what had gone on...he said he hadn't heard anything about it! Supposedly one of the teachers at the camp had given these girls detention...well wouldn't the principal KNOW about that if they actually got detention?? Plus NOBODY had called me & told me what had happened, so I'm sure that nobody called the girls' parents either...which isn't OK. He said he would find out what went on, but that he had some interviews that afternoon. He would "let me know." They don't have school on Fridays, so if I don't hear from him on Monday..I will call him again or just go in there. Matthew didn't go to school on Thursday, because he didn't want to deal with the girls that are in a few of his classes. I don't blame him. He doesn't know their last names, otherwise I would have contacted the parents already. I want the girls & their parents in the principal's office with Matthew, his dad & I. They need to know that it's not OK for their daughters to be brats and/or bullies. One of them is "rich" supposedly & throws that around quite often apparently. That's not OK either. If it keeps happening, I will tell them that he has a right to defend himself & if the girl(s) get hurt...then it's their own fault. The schools supposedly have an anti-bullying policy, but they never enforce anything. I'm not going to let this one slide. It was supposed to be a fun experience for him. It was his first time away from home (he's 11 & in the 5th grade)...so he was homesick as well...he didn't need this crap. I'm tired of bullies & I'm tired of the parents letting their kids get away with being that way.
My oldest started working at Subway & loves it so far...I hope he continues to do so. He goes to the alternative high school..that works better for him...yet he hasn't been going to that regularly...I'm tired of fighting with him about it. I told him that if he wants to quit, then to go ahead & quit, but then he has to get his GED, work full-time & find a place to live. I love him immensely...I just don't know what the hell to do about getting him thru school. He has missed so much school that he won't graduate on time (in 2 years) unless he motivates himself & gets it done. I don't really see that happening. If he moves out, I lose child support for him, which would really hurt...but it's going to end eventually anyway. I have told them & others that when they are all 18 & out doing their own thing, that I will be living in a box in Vegas.LOL Hopefully not. But it's going to be really difficult & I do worry about that. Plus I don't want them out any time soon. I love them & they are my life. By the way, no I DON'T want him quitting school...I just need him to make up his mind what he wants to do before they kick him out & he doesn't have a choice.
I had told you that I was talking to 2 different guys that I was interested in...well the one in West Virginia is definitely the one that I would love to be with. He feels the same about me. It got serious fast, so I know that we need to move slower...which we will. Not much choice with the distance & all. After Jeff living with the boys & I & then leaving like he did...I'm not going to rush into anyone living with us again or the boys getting close to someone again until I'm sure...well hell I was "sure" about Jeff. So I don't know. The whole Jeff thing was a fiasco. I want a relationship, but I also want it to just be the boys & I for awhile...I know that I can't have it both ways.
The low carb thing has been going pretty good...though I'm not as strict as I should be. I should be at least 10 lbs less than I am right now if I was following my schedule. I have gotten down to 311...but am 313 right now. I just need to be more strict with myself & also start exercising. I THINK about exercising a lot...LOL Just need to DO it.
The last time I wrote...I weighed 320 lbs. I got all the way up to 327!:( On Easter, I felt so crappy that I vowed that I would start a low carb diet the next day. I weighed in at 318. As of yesterday, I'm 312.:) I'm proud of myself. Now to keep going & not sabotage myself. I'm not sure why I even DO sabotage myself. It's like I freak out when I start losing weight or maybe it's because I can't have the comfort food that I want? I really don't know. But I know I can do this. I have a couple of things coming up that I want to be thinner for. The boys have a State Bowling Tournament in Denver the weekend of May 16th. I would like to AT LEAST be in the 290's by then. Then a girl I used to babysit is getting married on June 6th. She is BEAUTIFUL! So I don't want to be looking like a blimp. She's marrying a hot guy, so I'm sure there will be other hot guys there as well.:) I know that there is no way that I can lose 100 lbs in a couple of months, but I can lose a decent amount if I really try. I haven't started exercising yet. I figured that I would wait until I got down to 295-300 lbs before I started doing that. We'll see.
I got my hair cut & lightened last month & I like it.:) I didn't think I would look OK with short hair, but it's really not that bad. After frying my hair so much last year, I don't think it's going to grow out that much anyway. It hasn't yet. So now it's mostly blonde...but with some darker brown in the back. I was supposed to go back this month to get the roots lightened, but it's $50, so will have to wait until next month for that.
Maximus is getting big!! Hard to believe that he's 2 months old already. He's such a sweet baby. He is starting to smile a lot more & make little "cooing" sounds. I love it. I know that I'm too attached, but can't help it.
I have been talking to some guys one kik....mostly they are either teenagers or they want to trade nude pics.:( But I have met a few that have become friends. I talk a lot to a guy in Arizona & one in West Virginia. They are both sweet & actually around my age. But them living in different states is a bit of an issue. I know that things will work out the way they're supposed to, but it's not easy letting go of control like that.
I started a funding page to see if I could get some help with taking the kids to their bowling tournament next month. I felt weird doing it. I don't like asking for help like that, but I just don't have that much cash. I get disability & child support...which really helps...but we are out of money pretty much always the last 2 weeks of the month,. It makes it hard. I know that some people will judge, but it is what it is. The sites are there for a reason. People don't HAVE to donate, I just don't like hate mail. I may add the link on here...not sure anyone even reads this anymore since I haven't been on here. I need to make more time for everything.
It's snowing here today!! It was like 70 degrees out yesterday!!LOL Weird Colorado weather. It's a heavy, wet snow. Usually is in the Spring.
