I'M BACK.:)

I haven't really talked much on here lately.  The depression has been kicking my ass.  Still kinda hanging around...but not as bad.  I'm supposed to take the boys to the zoo in Colorado Springs (2 hrs from here) tomorrow.  I have been promising them all Summer.  It's going to start getting colder..so need to do it now.  But woke up this morning with a stomach bug.:(  Still not feeling real great.  I was then going to wait until Sunday or Monday (they don't have school on Monday because of Columbus Day)..but the weather is supposed to be crappy those days.  So going to aim for tomorrow & just hope that I feel better by then.  Would suck to feel like crap the whole time.  JM might go with us.  He's been sick as well.  His has hung on for a couple of weeks..hope mine is just a 24 hour thing.  It would be nice for him to be able to go..would be the first time he's met my kids.  We shall see.  Then I may go up to see him next weekend.  Otherwise will have to wait until November.:(  Hell, can't believe that it's October already!! 

I have been "pinning" pictures a lot on pinterest lately.  I love that site!!LOL  Just happened to come across it one day..became quite obsessed for a few days.  Are any of you on there?  It's like hoarding without all the mess!!:)  My site is http://pinterest.com/coloradosugar/ if you would like to take a look.

The weight loss thing is going OK...could be better..but am working on it.  I'm in a better place than I was, so that helps.  Not feeling so down on myself.  I know that diet pills don't really help, but decided to give one more a try.  Started taking TriAdalean yesterday.  Will let you know how it goes.  I just need some help controlling my appetite & having more energy. 

Dave & I still talk, but he's "moved past" the whole stalking thing.  Which is good. 

Adam & I went to the mountains on September 30th...I haven't seen him in like 3 months.  It was fun.  That's "our thing," I guess.  To go 4-wheeling in the mountains.:)  I LOVE being up there.   We talk every now & then...but it's just a friend thing..has been from the start.  I'm still head over heels for JM.

I went to the doctor yesterday..I still have to have another chest x-ray, but he says my lungs sound good.  I have had this sinus thing going on for a couple of months now.  So he's going to send me to a Ear, Nose & Throat Specialist to see if he knows what's going on.  It just gets annoying being so stuffed up all the time.  I weighed in at 314 lbs at the doctor yesterday.:(  That will change soon.  I refuse to stay huge.