DAYS.....

I have decided that I don't like the way my questions & answers from FMM look after I post them.:(  Not sure what to do about it though.  Any help would be appreciated.  Or maybe that's just the way Blogspot is now?  

Phillip is going in late today.:(  He has a cold & would not get up this morning for the bus.  My mom will have to come get him, since I'm without a vehicle.  Hopefully that will change within the next month or so.

I started exercising again today.  It's been awhile...I HAVE been going for walks with Jeff, but my weight just isn't going anywhere & it's frustrating.  So started "Slim in 6" again today, which is kicking my butt.  I had been doing it for awhile before & things were going well.  Now...well it's just not an easy thing, but nothing worthwhile ever is.  Hopefully this will help me drop weight faster.  Right now, my first goal is 275 & I'm 289 now.  I also don't want it to take me months to lose 14 lbs.  I know that I let my weight define who I am.  Jeff says I'm always talking about my weight.  Which I guess is true.  I'm either obsessing about my weight or food it seems.  I actually think I pulled a muscle in my back exercising this morning.:(  It's hurting quite a bit at the moment.  But I have pain of one sort or another all the time.  I know that a lot of people don't believe in Fibromyalgia, but it's a real thing & it sucks.

I went to the doctor last week & tests were negative.  She is running a few more tests & I see her again on the 31st.  She ordered more blood work, a chest x-ray & I have an ultrasound on my stomach scheduled for tomorrow morning.  If all of that comes back negative, she said she would have to send me to a specialist to see what is going on.  I'm like freaking out a bit.  A white cell called Eosinophils are high.  They are usually high in parasitic infections or allergic reactions.  I have been checked for the parasites...that's the test that came back negative.  It could be other things as well...but those two are the most common.  They are usually like 5% or something & mine has been up to 29%.  Get this...she said that they have been consistently high for awhile now.  I'm like what??  She showed me my bloodwork that I had done in June & September as well.  In June, they were like `16%, in September 11%, on December 21st when it was pretty crazy & I went to the ER it was 29% & then when I went back to the ER on December 27th, they were 18%.  What I'm a bit pissed off about is if they have been consistently high....and it could go back even farther than last June...then why didn't they say anything or do something then??  I am NOT happy about that.   Then they are also going to "keep an eye" on changes in my uterus as well.  When they did the pelvic ultrasound to check for ovarian cysts, they found that there is some thickening there or whatever & if it gets any thicker, it might be an issue.  I haven't had a period since the beginning of October.  I already have my right ovary out, I'm not going to have anymore kids (tubes are tied), so they might as well just take everything out.  But she doesn't want to do that yet...we'll just wait & see.  Geez.

Jeff & I are going to go see a therapist on the 28th.  I have some issues of my own, but also the whole lack of sex thing is the main reason we are going.  He keeps telling me that it's not me, but who knows.  So maybe this will clear some things up.