STILL AWAKE....

I'm still awake at 2:50am & then wonder why I'm so tired during the day!!LOL  I'm actually dying my hair again...lighter blonde once again.  I can't help it...just like blonde.  Actually I liked red...but I would never look good with red hair unfortunately.:(  My cousin, Brenda has red hair & I was so jealoous of it when we were kids & she hated it...being called "Red" or "Carrot Top," etc.  I have always thought that guys with red hair were hot..LOVE Ron in "Harry Potter!!":)  Though I have only met a few guys with red hair in my time.  So we'll see how this turns out.   Hoping that I look good.  Getting older...I know that blonde isn't always the best way to go now.  I have just been dying my hair since I was like 20.  I have had some strange colors come out at times...once it was too yellow & another time it was too orange...maybe if I was younger, that would have been the "in" thing to do.;)  But not now.  Though there IS this older lady at work who can pull of maroon hair...I guess it's maroon.  Just very bright.LOL

Dominic went on his field trip & had a lot of fun.:)  I'm glad that he did.  I was worried.  He did all the activites..some kids didn't because they were afraid of heights or whatever.  They had horseback riding, canoeing, repelling, zip lining & a couple of other things.  I guess I will always worry about my kids though,..no matter how old they are or where they are.  Just part of being a mom.

I texted my sister, Bev today to ask a question about this legal thing & to ask if she wanted to go to dinner sometime, since we never get to see each other.  She never texted me back.:(  It hurts my feelings.  I know that she is caught up in her life, but I miss her.  I just wish that she would make more of an effort to stay in touch with me.  After all, we ARE sisters.  The legal matter is this....my dad passed away in 2001 & his mom passed away in 2010.  She didn't leave a will...which is the craziest thing I ever heard.  I mean she was meticulous about EVERYTHING.  A spotless house, keeping records of everything....she had a huge yard & garden & had maps of where everything was planted, etc.  So it just doesn't make any sense to me that she didn't leave a will.  Anyway, my Aunt Sharon had lived with her for the last 10 years or so of her life, along with one or more of her adult children.  In that time.. that house went to hell.  When I was a kid, we weren't allowed to even play in the house, because it was so spotless.  Well, believe me, that changed.  They had dogs & a million birds (my aunt raised them or whatever).  It was just a mess.  The once beautiful yard & garden died..they didn't even try to take care of it.  It was very sad to me.  Well..3 years later...my sisters (including my half sister Lori whom I never talk to), were sent letters from a lawyer.  Basically my Aunt Sharon & her sister, my Aunt Linda, want to put the house in their names..since my dad is deceased, I guess my sisters & I have a say in it.  My grandma's house is on a corner lot & the house & the land that goes with it..it equals 6 lots.  The way house prices are around here these days...it would go for a pretty high amount..just for the land, since the house isn't in the best shape.  I think that they want to sell some of the lots off..not sure if they want to sell the house or not.  They didn't talk to us about it or anything, so not sure what is going on.  If there is no objection from my sisters or I, then it will just go in their names & whatever they sell, they will get the profit from it & most likely their kids as well.  I don't think that's right that we wouldn't get anything.  I'm not being greedy, but I'm pretty sure my dad would have wanted us to have something.  So not sure what to do.  I'm not good at this kind of thing.  Then if I DO object, then we have to go to court, which I suck at even more.  My dad died without a will as well...I think he thought he would live forever, even after he was diagnosed with Stage 4 lung cancer.  Any donations that were made or any insurance money, my step-mom took & went to Europe a couple of months after he died.  My sisters & I each got one thing that we had given dad over the years...I got a Bronco coffee cup.  Then she tried to tell my Aunt & Grandma that we had just "come in & taken a bunch of stuff," just to try to start a fight.  Anyway..I kinda got off the subject there for a minute.  I guess the bottom line is to have a will.  I still need to do that myself.  As for the other...I don't know.  Do I ask for my name to be put on the house as well & if they do sell anything, then I will split dad's share between my sisters & I?  Or do I just ask that it be included in the papers that my sisters & I get something if they decide to sell?  I know that it will probably start a war.  Family things are always hard.

OK...the craziest thing happened to me.  As you know, I work at Wal Mart.  Well there is this guy that has come in a few times & comes thru my line.  He's always nice to me & when I say "have a good day, see you later" he says "I hope so."  I didn't really think anything of it, because guys don't normally pay attention to me, let alone flirt with me.  I haven't worked for a few days, so I went in (yesterday now) with Matthew to get him some new shoes.  So Matthew went to look at them while I got a few other things.  Well the guy was in one of the aisles & he said "I was hoping that I would run into you."  He went on to tell me that he's new in town, that he's getting settled, that his name was Jim.  He then asked if I would like to go out sometime & if he could have my number!  OK all you women out there...this may be a regular thing for you...but in all of my 43 years, a guy has never asked for my number.  So it was actually pretty cool.  I figure we can hang out as friends sometime.  Anyway, we went our separate ways, but saw each other again in another part of the store.  Matthew was with me that time, so I said "this is my son, Matthew."  So they said hi to each other, but I think that may have changed his mind.LOL  Which is fine.  I just thought it was kinda cool that he actually asked for my number.  OK, I will move on now.LOL

We're pullling Phillip out of school on Monday.  I talked to the school counselor & she thinks it's a good idea & that she has some on-line class information for me, but that he has to be enrolled in one of them by the end of next week or it will be turned over to the courts.  I told Phillip that there are going to be some rules & some changes.  He HAS to do his school work & get totally caught up to where he's supposed to be right now, he has to help around the house & do some yardwork, he can't sleep or play games all day & he has to lose some weight.  I'm not being mean about that last thing either.  He's gaining weight way too fast & it's not good of his body.  He's 15, about 6'2 & weighs around 330 right now.:(  We have to help him NOW.  We have tried to help him, but he doesn't want to hear it & wants to eat all the time.  It's been difficult.  Dominic & Matthew both weigh 100 lbs right now (they are 11 & 9), but Dominic is a little chubbier than Matthew because Matthew is taller, which Dominic hates.  I told all of them that we can go on walks, they can ride their bikes, etc, but that they can't stay inside playing video games all day.  Dominic was playing football on his recesses..but guess that was "banned" recently, because they could get hurt.  That's ridiculous.  They can play when there are coaches & helmets, but not otherwise.  They can't even be kids anymore.

I weighed in at 299 yesterday.:)  I did that once before earlier this year, but then went back up into the 300's.  So not going to celebrate yet.  I want to get down as far away from 300 as I can.  Tired of that number.

I hope everyone has a good weekend.:)

P.S.  JM & I have been together for 10 months today.:)